two more days till spring break and CHRIS! :D

today went well, i had training for being a test-proctor. the other volunteer teachers, paraprofessionals, and i are going to help kids with special needs take their tests. standardized testing is the devil, no joke. its not fair, it will never be fair. at least i can help make it a bit more easy to understand, or at least to take the test.

i did my pilates for the first time since i don't know when!! ive always been drawn to the leisurely, sedentary pursuits in my quarter of a century on this earth- which has done bad, bad things to my butt and thighs. im not kidding, i have the naked rear of a lady in her forties who hasn't worked out since her twenties. i wouldn't mind so much if i were forty.. i need to be more active..and i definitely need to do my pilates regularly. not just to look my age naked, but to keep myself limber. its the truth- people who stretch regularly don't get all stiff as they age. and even people who are in their fifties and up, and are experiencing lack of flexibility can start stretching and fix a lot of lower back, etc. problems. stretching is a miracle and a necessity! if only my boyfriend lived nearby so i could be on top for sex three or more times a week [[or a day, hee hee]] i'd be toned up in no time!! for now, Pilates!!

i have every window in my apartment open! which = two, hah. even the breeze is warm, idyll. [[not ideal, its not a spelling error, hee hee]] i love fresh air. my apartment smells so amazing right now, and the kitteh is enjoying exploring my balcony.

for dinner i tore some chicken into bite sizes-ish and sprinkled them on top of my guacamole. im eating it with black corn chips- so delicious!!

tomorrow i have to CLEAN. im doing my dishes and cleaning my bathroom for when chris comes!

ahhhh three more days till spring break and chris!!! today went much better than yesterday cause i gave myself an attitude check-me being cranky makes the kids cranky and then nobody learns. the kids forgave me my rant from yesterday-i didnt formally apologize but i gave them a carefree bellwork, "What are you doing for Spring Break?", to get them in a positive mindset. two of the kids complained that they had to write such a silly bellwork, but thats two out of 130, so, i WIN. hah. i know every student's name except two or three kids that i know, then forget, then know again-that also makes me feel good!

i went to kroger after school today and procured a rotisserie chicken! i stuffed pieces of chicken, guacamole, cheese, and salsa into my whole wheat pita bread i bought with karima saturday. mmmMMM.. i am disappointed with the quality of the apples i bought from the farmer's market sunday. le sigh. i am not going to buy bags of apples anymore-individual, double-checked by me, apples from now on. oh well.

i found free, full-version copies of "The Great Gatsby", and "A Room With a View" on the interwebs last evening. i'm rereading them! though i'd rather have the real-live versions in my hands to feel the delicious paper, and to smell of the glue that binds the pages. however, i am poh folks, so free is the best price!

i'm ready for spring break! i know that as an adult i should not even expect things like breaks...but i missed my university's because of student teaching-now im taking the kids' next week-h00t. i kind of snapped at my 6th period today and i feel like a real heel (hee hee unintentional rhyming) i can't wait till tomorrow when i can apologize-mrarr. till then i'll just feel extremely guilty. 4 days till spring break.. countdown hath begun!

this weekend chris is coming in and its also the Clifton Heights Music Festival!!! w000WOOO. then i get to spend a week with chris!! and then next weekend is Beaux Arts Ball! i have a LOT to look forward to :D ohhhh spending weeknights and evenings with chris! while he's at work i can work on my resume and research schools i wanna apply to, finish up some homework, do the dishes and tidy up, tee hee! i'ma modern woman, but i still like to do nice things around teh house foh my significant other [[he's a better cleaner than i am]] right now im hoping he gets on facebook so we can chat [[his phone bill is High]] also during spring break im going to do my crafty things that i don't seem to have time for during the week!!

i need a good book to read. i have some ideas, but i don't actually have any copies of the books i want to read with me! i can't find my "Room With a View", "The Great Gatsby", or my "Life of Pi"---> these are three books i want to re-read very badly! i can read chris' entire series in one book copy of the "Hitchhiker's Guide"!! that'll make for good reading!

im going to get off of here and hunt for books some more..

wonderful weekend. today karima and i went to Findlay Market in OTR!! [[my dream apartments are in OTR-exposed brick living room walls and wood floors so amazing]] it is my new favorite place to shop! its local and caters to my quirky whims. i got apples for my lunches this week from their farmer's market. their produce is extremely cheap-part of it is its straight from the source, and part is where its located. the general populace in OTR can't afford high prices, noone can, me included. plus it makes me feel better inside when i buy from farmers. though the fruits and veggies had stickers on them, which saddened me, cause it means that they were brought in from somewhere else. but what can yah do? fruits and veggies dont grow in these parts quite yet-oh seasons. and i feel much more attached to food from farmer's markets than kroger. i like the vendor-farmer/me interchanges.

i procured some homemade strawberry rhubarb jam sweetened with honey, homemade soap samples at a dollar each [[im going to let chris pick some for his place]] . each little ball of soap will prob last me 3-4 weeks in the shower, and who knows how long as handsoap! karima and i ate delicious gyros stuffed with goodness. a man offered us free pastry since they were closing :D yummm! for dessert i got lavender-honey gelato!!!!!!! it was so amazingly light, refreshing and sweet! i wanted a pint but i resisted-i wish i hadnt now. hah. i cannot wait until the farmer's market Right Next to my apartment complex opens up again on thursdays!!

i paid my bills today, all except my internet bill-i couldnt figure out the automated system, le sigh. i feel mightily better now that i've paid most of my bills, its always a sense of relief. they kinda loom.. :]

only this week than my SPRING BREAAAAK! i get to spend a whole 9 days with chris!! he's going to pick me up this friday. were going to the clifton heights music festival!!! losanti [my friend john's band] and the flux capacitors are going to be playing!!! both of these bands get me out of my seat and dancing!!! im glad i understand that you don't need to dance well to dance, h00t! im going to wear one of my new spring dresses i got from Franchesca's. they're quirky, feminine, vintage-inspired, and comfortable-what more could a girl ask for?? [mayhap unlimited credit there tee hee]

i love the sound of rain on my balcony. i miss visiting my grandma in her trailer [when my mom lived with her] and laying in my bedroom and listening to the rain hit the aluminum roof. the sound was all encompassing -not just in the periphery. mmm spring rain.

i canna wait for this semester to be over! im going to send out resumes over spring break (week and a half) and take my certification exams in late july!! h00t! i think im going to get certified for kentucky And west virginia-cause chris lives right on the border :D

i had a really good day teaching today! my teacher told me he can tell the kids respect and trust me! i am so glad i earned their trust and respect! and i can joke around with them and i enjoy getting to know them!!

chris is helping me learn more about buddhism. im really really curious about it. what ive read so far shows a lot of parallels between what i try to pratice in my daily life and what i aspire to! i don't go in for mysticism in any kind of way-EXCEPT Nature-i always feel mystical when summer breezes caress my skin and fireflies roam! but buddhism comes the closest of any kind of belief system to matching how i feel about life, the universe, and everything-hah, i think i just accidentally and erroneously quoted hitchhiker's guide! chris recommended it to me when i asked him what book i should read next. ive read the first book, but i need to read the others!

im getting sleepy..soooo sleeeepy. darn waking up at 6 am and falling asleep by 8:30/9 every weeknight. le sigh. im a sleep wuss- i gotsta have it and lots of it!!

sweetest O' dreams to those who read this!

buddha & pbr at chris' place! i can't wait to be there on spring break!
2 posts/ 1 day..yeppers, i have that much of a life tee hee!

i am going to sew some very simple skirts soon! i found this really amazing fabric with drawings of flowers and their scientific names printed on it! its expensive, but i only need one yard. im going to use the extra to make a ruffly hem at the bottom :D chris is going to help me as he is much accomplished at sewing-h00t! i canna wait
i wish it was the weekend, i really really do. hopefully the next few days will go by quickly. fingers crossed!! earlier i was feeling pretty lonely. the internet can make me feel so lonely sometimes. especially if the blogs i read don't have new posts, and noone has said anything to me on facebook. i think a big part of this is that im isolated from my boyfriend, friends, family, and the places i love to go. i wish i'd gotten an apartment closer to cinci...oh well. there weren't any good options available when i needed to rent.
today was really sunshiney so i opened up my doorwall and let my kitteh explore the balcony a bit yea'!

clean laundry, at last! i did a load of laundry last weekend at my parents house and they are rampant cigarette smokers-so my "clean" clothing smelled like a bar :[ i also forgot to take my sheets with me.... today, however, i am washing two loads of clothes and my sheets AND my faux-down comforter!!!! so clean! :D
im at a little laundromat in ohio about 5 mins from where i currently reside. it has wireless interwebs, can you believe it? i couldn't at first. i came prepared with chocolate graham crackers and peanut butter-both kroger brand i's poh folks right now till may..really till i get a job.... i tend to gravitate toward kroger brand anyhow-just ask me if youre unsure of trying a store brand, i've probably tried it! por ejemplo: never ever buy kroger value brand cheese..just don't do it ;> i am almost out of my kashi crackers and amy's chocolate bunnies, le sigh. i cannot afford to buy more. that's why i procured the kroger chocolate graham crackers..theyre basically the same idea as the amy's cookies.. but i still treated myself to natural peanut butter!! for me, peanut butter should have three ingredients: peanuts, sugar, and salt..this one has palm oil, which i am not too happy about, but it was the cheapest natural pb kroger had.. it's organic, which isn't essential but is an added bonus i suppose.
i just put a few more quarters in my driers..im getting kinda stir crazy sitting here at the laundromat! ahhh! i canna wait to get home and put my clean sheets on my bed! i almost want to wait though, just in case chris comes in this weekend-that way there'll be Fresh-fresh sheets for him to lay upon.. i know, i'm weird...heh.
i can't wait for this semester to be OVER. i'm done with the portfolio, papers, and reflections. i'm done with student teaching-i want my OWN classroom. grrrrarrrrrrr. i want to be Free to sleep next to chris on weeknights! of all things, i know. apparently this is too much to ask of the universe. hah, har. :D
hmm..i need to check my laundry again.
farewell for now

blear and bleck..

today started out blah, and ended okeedoo.. my school emailed me and said that i still needed a natural science course-even though my adviser said i was okay in that department last semester. i called UK though and they said im gen ed certified and im good-im still going to do a follow up call and email to UK and my current school. never trust universities to handle your paperwork correctly. i've been taught this time and again. but at least that stress is gone.

mostly i was in a funk because a little girl- who ive been nothing but nice to and im even planning to have all the teachers sign a farewell card to her when she moves in a week or so- was blatantly disrespectful to me twice today-i pretended not to notice, but if she acts out tomorrow im going to have to have a talk with her. then the next step is a write up. but i DONT want to do that!! i'm pretty sure i'll have to have a talk with her tomorrow..le sigh. im as respectful as possible to the students, and so far theyve responded well to that, but i just have to accept that not all students are going to be respectful just because i treat them with respect. eh wot? it just doesnt make sense to me.

also my teacher keeps piling work on me, finally i had to tell him that i can't run his classroom by myself and THEN run his literature enrichment class by MYSELF as well. blah. also, i have just enough money to cover my main expenses-barely.

i had a bleck day today and that's that. i wish i could skip tomorrow-but i need to save my skip day for a day when my car doesnt start-which could definitely happen. oh well.

on a positive note, i Did get that nat. sci. class stuff mostly taken care of, i've got my lesson for tomorrow planned out, my graduation dress came in the mail and my mom is having it professionally steamed at a bridal shop and then shipped to me in a dress box!! my skin is looking a bit better lately since i stopped wearing makeup most days. i have a boyfriend who loves me and i love him!! i have a purring kitteh on my lap and Toasted Asiago kashi crackers to munch on mmmMMM :D

i canna wait till tomorrow afternoon! im going to come straight home after buying some kitty litter and finish cleaning up my place. then ima clean me and i GET TO SEE CHRIS! i might suggest we go out to clifton and then to a park or the zoo.. or mayhap out to lex :] its finally spring!!!!!

i got a new face scrub and body scrub while i was at whole foods today restocking my shampoo and conditioner! i wish my skin hadnt gotten so bad last summer and that it wasnt scarred. i wish i knew how to get rid of acne scars. i never was a acned kinda person then blam! eh. the body scrub left my skin all soft and delicious! i cant wait to use it before chris comes and surprise him w my delectable skins ;> i found some tom's lemongrass scented deodorant at whole foods and i procured some for chris!! he's obsessed w kroger lemongrass and basil hand soap, i hope he likes the deodorant! i got some delicious scented deodorant in the same brand for me.

h00t im tired. teaching is a very active job if youre doing it right! wranglin' eighth graders is no easy task. im much happier at my new student teaching placement-the teachers share my educational philosophy. we agree that we should respect our students and treat them like human beings. i dont yell ever, and i only raise my voice if i Have to. i praise good behaviors and ignore as many bad behaviors as i can!! yay for student teaching!!! i stayed after a half hour cutting up flashcards for the kids for tomorrow! i still need to cut more. 90 kids x 20 flashcards each= a LOT. i would have bought a whole bunch of flashcards, but i cant afford to.

man, im beat and my eyes are trying to close on me, theyre having trouble focusing on the lappy screen. well, im off for now.

i need to DO

im having a lonely sunday. i spent my weekend with my parents in lagrange doing laundry, relaxing, being sick.. we went and saw Alice in wonderland saturday. it was visually what i had hoped, but too "kid movie" for me. it was good to see my parents and i know it makes them feel less sad and detached from me.

there is so much i need to do.. my apartment's cluttered state is making me unhappy. i need to clean, clean, clean. mostly though i need to donate more of my stuff. i have six years worth of clothing, papers, etc. all over my floor. i have kids papers from my student teaching ALL over the place. i want it all gone. i want a dresser so i can organize my clothing and put it AWAY. i miss my boyfriend, and it doesnt look like were going to be able to see each other for a couple more weeks. sigh [i literally just sighed, hah]

i REALLY want to have plants again-but my cat will eat them and knock them over. im thinking about starting some plants out on my balcony-it'd be a fantastic use for it!! then that way the kitteh can't hurt my plants.

heres some fb chat i had that i thought i'd share, it kinda sums up my mood today:

"i felt all lonely and drifty earlier, but in a good way... now im all cozy and non-lonely, which is also good hee hee

you know those kinda moods were your eyes are wide open out the window for minutes at a time?"

such things as i post on my friend molly's wall...:D

Hem Stitch

the anthro catalog [that i requested weeks and weeks ago] finally arrived today. bringing with it the first blush of spring-blah, blah..but mostly sinful temptation whose banshee cries awaken me all hours of the night. they mostly say, "you can live off of rameeeeennnnn..." and "you Must Needs procure those shoes AND that cardigaaaaaannnnn"

hee hee oh our shared obsession ;>

Chris' Countertop Gnome!

i wish that i lived with chris, or at least near him. im a pro at the whole long-distance thing, but it is not the way i would choose to live my life if i could control it right now. 2 months till graduation!! i canna wait! even tho' the job prospects simply are not in existence right now, im hopeful. fingers crossed that there will be some job in an education-related field open for me to take. Also, i'll get my etsy shop up and running while im waiting to procure a teaching job-make a pittance at least to chip in :D

i was already trying to thin out my belongings, but i really need to if i'm going to be able to cohabit a domicile!!! i just have so much Clothing. and little slips of paper and photographs. i need to scan all the photos and put them into albums. i have about 5 disposable cameras from years ago, ahhh. im not a naturally organized person, and messes snowball quickly around me. so for me to be tidy, i need as few "things" as possible. and about 3 dressers-two large ones at least-to house all of my clothing that still fits and is wearable. i can probably get about two more bags full of clothing to donate. bah! i want it gone! i wish i could afford a maid service to come in-just to get me started on the right path, hee hee
. my kitteh is napping. i wonder what he is dreaming of?

please to spring.

i can't wait till i have time to clean my place! its getting ridiculous. i have too much stuff-its weighing me down. chris helped me unload the 8 bags i had at the salvation army near me!! its nice to have that space by the door clear-when my place is clean, my psyche is clean. and my place is Far from clean. soon ;>

hmmm.. more later, im nodding off.