things seem to be looking up. or at least things seem like they should be looking up, hah!
hmm..maybe i'm in a decidedly more cheerful mood because last night was Masterpiece Mystery on PBS and twas Miss Marple!! and NEXT sunday is "Murder on the Orient Express" which i checked out from the le biblioteca last week- i must needs read it before this sunday! [[always read the book before seeing the movie peoples, always!!]]

my love life is still non-existant. or at least hanging in some uncomfortable limbo. i'm not sure what i want exactly to happen. and the random pangs i get are probably irrational or at best, misguided. i'm happy to be "single" and then again, i am not sure. bleh! sometimes it is cold comfort to know that you did all that you could, said all that you could say, and made the right decision for the moment. however, i am only good at being patient when i know what the outcome is. i am piss poor at being patient when i am not sure what is going to happen.
to explain: i can wait forever for a letter to come in the mail, or for dessert, if i know its coming. if the outcome of a situation in uncertain- i cannot wait for the outcome to BE-come certain. if that makes sense. hmmm..

i want a pet cricket or seven!! i think i'm going to turn my balcony into a mini-ecosystem/biosphere type area for CRICKETS. and/or snails!! or at least i wish i had a few plants. the plant i had for THREE YEARS was killed while being babysat by a friend a year or so ago- its time to move on i suppose, and plant anew!!!